I really miss my mother. Next month it will be 18 months since she died. She was my best friend, my champion, my rock and my confidant. No one loved me like her, I know I was the first thing on her mind when she woke (along with my sister and father), she encouraged me with my career and my sports, she accepted me just as I am – failures and successes. Today was a tough day and I thought of her unconditional love and I have to admit I cried a bit. So I did what any sensible woman would do when sad, I played the Rolling Stones.
“You can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometime you find, you get what you need.” Brilliant. My mamma taught me to not sulk in my woes. I have all I need, that is for sure, and plenty of the wants. I may not have some of the wants I really have my heart set on, but I won’t let it keep me down. This song set me straight and stopped the sadness. It also helped my run this evening. I ran late so I headed downstairs to my treadmill – iPod allowed. And I ran a great 4 mile tempo run to burn all of my frustration. I swam this morning too, no surprise there. A good endurance swim totaling 2,500 meters followed by 15 minutes of flipping. That is one want I will get.
Today was a great example of what is, is. I am entitled to my moments, but it will not keep me down. Living in our sorrows is worse than eating a fried fatty diet and not exercising. It kills our soul. I have a healthy strong body and I want the same for my soul. So I will celebrate all that I need, I have. As well as many of the wants.