I have always wanted to fall head over heels, but until that day comes I will celebrate that today is the day I successfully flipped head over heels – and pushed off the wall. Over and over again. I met the lifeguard at the pool this morning for an hour of flipping. For a good half hour he had me work on flipping straight over while holding float foam weights so my arms wouldn’t mess me up. I would kick into the flip, flip where I thought was the right spot and come over with my toes an inch from the wall. Finally I put the weights on the pool deck and swam into the flip, felt the wall and pushed off. I felt like I was soaring across the sky. I even did several laps and flipped at both ends. Then the lifeguard said “you have it down, you don’t need me anymore.”
I have written before about how crutches can be helpful, but have to be surrendered in order for advancement to take place. First I had to give up the foam weights, then I had to give up my guide. Once I did, I was able to prove to myself I could do it. This lesson translates to so many aspects of life. People and things are so alluring to lean on. Misery loves company – we can choose to wallow in our issues and complain to others who will confirm it is okay to be weak. Or we can seek out others who will encourage us to improve. Both can be crutches, that is the dangerous part. Even when we are guided to improve, we still have to let go and do it on our own. So now that I can flip head over heels I also know I have to stand on my own before I can fall.