This morning I met my training partner to lift weights. I told her about my running plan and my new pace goals. As the words were coming out of my mouth “my ten mile race pace goal would be 9:30 per mile.” My head and my heart had a hard time believing it. What is my mantra again? Believe. Yup, that is it. As much as I have witnessed my progress, I still go through spells of doubt. Recently an advisor told me to keep my eyes open. Those words triggered a song right away in my mind.
‘Cus if you never leave home, never let go
You’ll never make it to the great unknown
Till you keep your eyes…open my love
Advancement can only take place by letting go of the comfortable routine, sometimes even a painful situation becomes part of a comfortable routine. The great unknown awaits – but courage is needed to get there. Drawing on a previous post – knowing I am going to be alright despite the circumstances. But letting go and keeping my eyes open to the opportunities, the potential better of the unknown, is what I need to advance. Staying closed off by the fear, the doubt, and previous short falls only blinds me.
This evening I made it to the pool and swam 3,000 meters. First I was able to swim a bit with my very fast friend who just swam in the US Masters Nationals swim meet. Words of encouragement from him really help me believe I can improve. The swim coach for the Masters group at my gym was also able to watch me swim. She gave me several tips to improve my stroke and also told me what I was doing correctly. Another confidence booster.
I would be fooling myself if I thought I would never have doubts. What I choose to do when that happens is up to me. Sulking is allowed – but only for a short time. Just enough to blow some steam. Then I have to go back to what motivates me. Mantras, music, friends, and keeping my eyes open. Because I am going to make it, and it won’t be unknown for long.