Motivation is not something I am lacking. Today I have been frustrated because my willpower, determination, and desire to explore is strong. My ability to act on it is limited. I follow quite a few blogs and three stuck out to me today. My friend at Manage Better Now wrote on Willpower. He questions if people who don’t follow through on goals are lacking willpower or are not planning properly. My willpower is strong, although I admit I have craved potato chips all day since reading the post. I plan well, in fact maybe a bit too detailed, and I have every desire to stick to my plan. Unfortunately my ankle has plans of its own.
My friend at Chasing Fifty wrote on Determination. He makes excellent points that determination, and even stubbornness, can be channeled for good or for destruction. My determination to train is strong. Yes, I may be a bit stubborn as well in wanting to continue as if a sprained ankle won’t change my course. And yes, the destruction is primarily to myself and future training if I experience another injury. Oh, and it would probably impact my training partner too since I am with her 5 to 6 days a week and do all of the same races with her. But the root of my determination is good. I desperately want to act on it, yet I am limited by what my slowly healing body will allow.
A blog I recently discovered is Cast Light, the author Kathie is incredibly inspiring and makes me look like a pessimist at times. On her pages is a comment: ‘”Cast Light” is a simple reminder that we have a choice to be positive or negative. We can cast light or cast shadows. Alway choose light.’ How can anyone reading that comment alone not want to sing with the birds like Snow White? Her post Explore really hit home with me. I want to set sail and explore, dream, and discover. And I want to now! I just mentioned the other day to someone that of the seven virtues I have six nailed down. Temperance, or moderation in needing things (patience also is considered the same virtue), is my weak link. Heck, Fortitude, or never giving up, I have an abundance of and it is challenging my Temperance…
This morning I swam 2,500 meters. It was a good swim, but I am getting tired of my limitations. Pushing off the wall with one leg is driving me batty. I tried a few times with both, gently, but my ankle would have none of it. I thought that now I am at the three week mark I could go without a brace during the day. My ankle was aching when I left for the gym after work and headed to the stationary bikes. I wore my stiff stability brace but could only ride for 30 minutes. The ache would come in sharp pains. So here I am writing about being motivated, having willpower, being determined and desiring to explore. And not a darn thing I can do about it. But as the Beatles so eloquently phrased it in Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band, I will get by with a little help from my friends. And fellow bloggers.