After a long night of rest and sleep I feel much better today. Being an analytical person, I am narrowing down what could be the culprit in my little “issues” during the race yesterday. About a month ago I changed electrolyte supplements in favor of one higher in sodium. I have be rigid about taking one every hour during endurance activities over two hours. I think I have to try a few different time intervals to find the right amount of sodium replacement I need. I did not cramp at all or feel extreme strain on the run, in my legs at least, which I have on many of my training runs. I have plenty of training ahead of me for my marathon in December to try out what works.
Before I look toward my marathon training, I want to be in the moment with what I have just experienced. I am accepting my results and happy that I participated in such a challenging event. In talking with a friend and fellow triathlete last night, he reminded me that not every race will things be in perfect alignment. I didn’t quit, I gave all I had, and I am better for the experience. A reminder I needed to change my thought process.
This morning I packed up my car and drove home. Changing out my racing wheels for my riding wheels, doing laundry, putting things away, I began to feel sad. Most of the day I have had “that pit in my stomach” feeling and not from an upset stomach. It is the bunch of nerves we get – it is the same feeling regardless of the cause – joy, sadness, regret, happiness, fear – our brain interprets it differently but our nervous system creates the same feeling. I have been analyzing (surprised?) the source of my feeling. Unlike the pervious triathlons this summer, this was the biggest and the last for the year. I wrote before, it is a bitter sweet moment. Maybe if I had hit my goal time I would not be so sad, although I am already strategizing the cycling workouts I plan to do over the winter to get stronger. I guess it is just that feeling that the big, anticipated event is over. And I have two rest days to think about it. Today my body is telling me I need it, my legs are sore with the lactic acid. My mind must want more to focus on.
Sometimes seizing the day and living in the present involves assessing what has passed. I am learning from my experiences and hopefully improving upon those experiences. My accomplishments even make my head spin – I was a scrawny teenager and young adult who thought endurance sports consisted of more than two laps around a track. Fortunately that all changed when I signed up to run a marathon 13 years ago. Appreciating all I have done up until today helps me enjoy today – nerves and all.