Yesterday was a good day – inspiring and full of accomplishment. So it is only natural that today, well, was just not yesterday. Part of it honestly for me has to do with the fact that I have not seen a ray of sunshine for at least 10 days. I even saw a few wild snow flakes flying around today. But beyond the weather, today was just blah. So bear with me as I work through this post and search for motivation, or a ray of sunshine if you will.
When I woke this morning I was not nearly as sore as I expected after running 21 miles yesterday. I had the typical fatigue that I have after a long run and the tightness in my right plantar fascia that demands some attention first thing in the morning. Nothing too sore that kept me from going to spin class. In the spin class room I am warming up only to learn that the class is going to be hills with most work going anaerobic. My thought – for some, but not me. I did the entire workout as instructed, I kept the RPMs suggested, and worked up a good sweat. What I did though was bring down the intensity so that I was in upper zone two into zone three rather than upper zone three into zone four. My legs just did not have enough gas to push it after my run yesterday. In all I got a good workout in, but something in me was just missing.
Usually I do Pilates at home on Mondays after work. Today I mixed it up because my trainer wanted to work together to show me my new resistance program for November. Just when I was getting my old “new” routine down she goes and ups the intensity. We only did one set of everything since I am just a day off of my long run. Wednesday I will do Pilates, and yes I will also up the intensity and move up to the intermediate DVD. Again – I got a good workout in, but I left with more of the blahs.
On my way out I saw the Master Swim coach at a table with information. I stopped to talk with him because I know he also is a triathlon coach. My friend I ran with yesterday works with him and he coached her through her first half iron triathlon this year. We talked a bit about group and individual training. This is something I am seriously considering. I really have enjoyed working with a running coach and adding a triathlon coaching program may be what I need to have a strong finish in Syracuse in June. So I left the gym with a little encouragement.
On my way home I listened to music on my iPod – specifically to an artist that wrote amazing worship songs before his untimely death – Rich Mullins. Regardless of your faith, there are a few lyrics I want to share that did bring today into perspective. The song is titled If I Stand. Without seeing sunshine for so long, the opening verses hit a cord in me:
There’s more that rises in the morning
Than the sun
More that shines in the night
Than just the moon
Yes, there is more out there than just the sunshine. Sometimes I have to dig deep on days like today to remember that I do not stand alone. And yes, there will be days when I would rather fall. Today came close. The chorus goes on to say:
So if I stand let me stand on the promise
That You will pull me through
And if I can’t let me fall on the grace
That first brought me to You
Well there it is. If you would like to hear the song, it is here. So today, today I will stand. Even if that means I do so on my knees.