This morning I woke up early enough to meet my friends at the pool. Keeping busy and being with others is just what I need right now. Even my dogs notice the void of Kosey being gone. My swim went well. Since I am still not eating the typical healthy diet I normally do, I have noticed I am a little slower in the pool and I cramped during a kick set. Despite this, I was able to swim 2,675 meters (the cramp cut me short 25 meters…) which is the furthest I have gone since getting sick. This evening I rode my bike on the trainer. I am getting the hang of it, the speed is still showing a very slow pace compared to what I ride on the road. After talking to a few friends, they experience the same thing on fluid trainers, so I am not going to fret about it.

I want to say it feels good to be getting back to my normal routine. But what is normal anyway? One thing that is certain, changes happen. Some I have control over, most I do not. No matter how much I may plan, life happens. Today in general was a good day – I had two good workouts, work went well, I met a new friend and had a good lunch conversation – and I still feel blue. Yes, this is to be expected. I have far from hidden my love of music and how lyrics impact me. A popular song right now has inspired me. Carry On by Fun.

If you’re lost and alone
Or you’re sinking like a stone
Carry on
May your past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground
Carry on

There really is not another choice. I have to carry on. Change brings a new normal, even little changes. The blues will pass. Spring should be here soon – the gray, rain, and cold lately will only give way to snow soon – but it really is only for a season. And with spring comes the newness of things, good changes hopefully, and warmer days. So today I will carry on. Change may be right around the corner.