After a few days off from writing I am now able to say that the good I have experienced since Thursday morning would not seem like much good to most people. A diagnosis of two bleeding ulcers. Not mine – my 92 year old father. While I continue to slowly recover from a stomach virus, my father has been complaining of stomach pain for about six weeks. A visit to the doctor did not find anything wrong. Well, Thursday evening it all came to a head and he was rushed to the emergency room with sever pain. When he got there the ulcers broke and he was bleeding – continually. On Friday a scope discovered the ulcers – the best possible diagnosis. Today he was moved out of ICU and hopefully will be home in a few days. When I first heard the cause was from two ulcers – I was happy it wasn’t anything worse. Who would have thought that would be good news? Perspective is everything.
What a week I had – I am still recovering from a stomach virus, I put my cat down on Tuesday, and on Thursday my father was admitted to the hospital in intensive care. On Wednesday I road my bike on my trainer at home and woke up Thursday with a spasm in my lower back – which I am still dealing with… Riding in the aero position probably didn’t help it along with the stress I have been dealing with. Burning stress through training has helped quite a bit the past few days. I am doing well running, my cycling seems to be getting stronger, it is only in my swimming that I have noticed I am a little slower. Hopefully when I am able to return to a regular diet that will change. I know I am not getting the nutrients I need.
Last night I was reading through the magazine I get from US Masters Swimming and I saw an ad for Finis equipment. The ad had a quote that caught my eye, especially after all I have been dealing with.
Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.
– Mahatma Gandhi
In sport, in work, in family, in life – we can have physical strength and fail if we do not have the will to go on. Just as my training tests and challenges my body to build strength, so do the trials I face strengthen my will. Indomitable – defined as impossible to subdue or defeat. That is what I want – a will that is impossible to subdue. I have had moments over the weekend where I questioned if I had the strength to get something done – a workout, managing my time to keep commitments with friends and make it to see my dad. How I got everything done is beyond me, I just know I had the will to do it. The strength must have followed. All the more to validate – where there is a will, there is a way.